urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia Valeria Valeria 2008-12-12T00:22:59Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:5280 2008-12-12T00:22:59Z 2008-12-12T00:22:59Z ～～～「夏の迷路」～～～<br />~~~"Spring's Maze"~~~<br /><br />(I sang this song in Japanese so I translated them into english so I can sing an english version I've translated them though so that it fits with the song.)<br /><br />ひとり　駅のホーム　あなたの姿探す<br />hitori eki no ho-mu anata no sugata sagasu<br />All alone on this train platform, trying hard to find your figure<br />まるで迷路に迷い込んだ　夏の日<br />marude meiro ni maiyoikonda natsuu no hi<br />As though, I've lost my way inside a maze on that spring day<br /><br />あの日　置き去りにした言葉　伝えたくて<br />ano hi okizari ni shita kotoba tsutaetakute<br />That day, leaving behind all those words you tried to convey<br />今も追いかけているよ　古ぼけた写真の中の笑顔<br />ima mo oikakete iru yo furuboketa shyashin no naka no egao<br />Even now, I'm still chasing that smile in these old photos<br /><br />陽射しが掠う夏の面影と電車の音<br />ahh hizashi ga sarau natsu no omokage to densha no oto<br />Ahh~ Reminissing the sound of the train and sun's rays of spring<br />終わりのない呪文みたい<br />owarinonai jyumon mitai<br />It's still not over it's like a spell<br /><br />ねぇ笑ってよ　あの頃みたいに夢を語り合って<br />nee waratte yo ano koro mitai ni yume wo katari atte<br />Hey, just smile like those days, it was just a like a dream when we talked<br />壊れそうだよ　崩れそうだよ　愛してるよ　今でも<br />kowaresou da yo kuzuresou da you aishiteru yo ima demo<br />It looks so broken, it seems to crumble, I love you you know, even now<br /><br />ふたり　路地のカフェ　口にできなかった想い<br />futari roji no kafe kuchi ni dekinakatta omoi<br />Just remember the two of us in a cafe where you couldn't speak your feelings<br />傷跡の数だけ　少しは前に進めたかな<br />kizuato no kazu dake sukoshi wa mae ni susumeta ka na<br />Only the amount of scars, seems to keep progressing doesn't it?<br /><br />ほら　陽炎がまた惑わす季節訪れ<br />hora kagerou ga mata madowasu kisetsu otozure<br />Now look, the shimmer of hot air comes again mysteriously this season<br />同じ場所に来てしまう<br />onaji bashou ni kiteshimau<br />We seem to keep going to the same place<br />それはただの幻　つかの間の夢と<br />sore wa tada no maboroshi tsuka no ma no yume to <br />That is but a miracle, like a dream for that brief momment<br /><br />　知りつつも　私は　前に進むことを選んだ<br />shiritsutsu mo watashi wa mae ni tsutsumu koto wo eranda<br />Even knowing that I was the one who chose to keep moving forward<br />　それが　失うことになるとしても<br />sore ga ushinau koto ni naru toshite mo<br />That, has also led to losing something in the end<br /><br />Ahh~<br /><br />ガラス越し　流れる景色は　全てを過去に洗い流す<br />garasu goshi nagareru keshiki wa subete wo kako ni arai nagasu<br />Behind the glass, the scenery washes away everything and it becomes the past<br />抜け出せない出口探し<br />nuke dasenai deguchi sagashi<br />I can't escape it, trying to find an exit<br /><br />ねぇ歌ってよ　あの頃みたいに肩を抱き寄せて<br />ne utatte yo ano koro mitai ni kata wo dakiyosete<br />Hey, sing just like those days and embrace my shoulders lovingly<br />思い出せなくなる　呟きさえ<br />omoi dasenakanaru tsubuyaki sae<br />I can't reemmber the memmories they're like a murmur<br /><br />だけどもう行かなくちゃ　前を向いて　これで終わりにして<br />dakedo mou yukanakuchya mae wo muite kore de owari ni shite<br />But stiil, I have to go, and keep looking forward, so with this, it will be the end<br />「鍵を掛けた恋の行方　胸に秘めて歩き出す」と<br />kagi wo kaketa koi no yuke mune ni himete aruki dasu to<br />So I said, "I'm locking away the path to love, in my chest and walking away."<br />～～～～～～～～～ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:4935 2008-11-06T05:01:48Z 2008-11-06T05:01:48Z What's going on between you and the last person you kissed? We're talking otn he phone right now lolz<br />Would you eat a cockroach for your last ex if they asked you? Nooooooooo<br />What friend do you tell the most to? Joshua<br />How's your heart lately? I got heart burn.<br />Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Luis<br />What are you listening to right now? Luis<br />Have you ever punched a hole in the wall? No<br />Where were you at 2:00 this morning? Talking to Luis.<br />Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes? Public bathroom.<br />Do you wear glasses? yes<br />What's in your cd player? I don't have one anymore.<br />Anything annoying you right now? My friend Cambrian being irresponsible.<br />If you could do something differently, would you go back? Everything happens for a reason.<br />What will you be doing in a half hour? Talking to Luis.<br />Who is the last person you talked on the phone with? luis<br />Are you going anywhere for the next summer? no<br />Did you have plans today? no<br />Are you waiting for anyone's call right now? no<br />Is the last person you kissed mad at you? no<br />Do you regret something you did yesterday? no<br />Favorite quote from the song you're listening to? i not listening to music...<br />What kind of bottoms are you wearing? pajama pants.<br />How many windows are open on your computer? 2<br />Is something bothering you right now? i horny<br />Are you sarcastic? sometimes<br />Are you shy? sometimes<br />Are you talkative? sometimes<br />What are you doing tomorrow? Probably babysit.<br />Where did your last hug take place? in my room<br />Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past month? yes<br />When was the last time you smiled? a few moments ago<br />Do you secretly like someone? it not a secret<br />Who was the first person you talked to today? my sister<br />What are you looking forward to? seeing luis<br />Do you fall for people easily? no<br />What's the last thing you put in your mouth? a peanut butter cookie.<br />Have you ever kissed anyone named Trey? no<br />Who was the last friend you rode in a car with (not family)? jessica<br />How late did you stay up last night and why? Till like 4 cos I was on the phoen with Luis.<br />Do you prefer to call or text? call<br />When was the last time you cried really, really hard? I unno sometime in the summer<br />Can you live a day without TV? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO<br />Do you regret doing anything this week? no<br />Who did you last talk to for longer than 10 minutes on the phone? luis<br />Would you ever become a vegetarian? NOPE<br />Last person you went to the movies with? luis and jessica<br />How often do you talk on the phone? at least once a day for a few hours<br />What is wrong with you right now? i'm horny<br />What do you wear to bed? NOTHING.<br />What is the longest you have been in the car for a road trip? 2 hours<br />Have you ever been around someone who was high? yes<br />Have you ever played a Wii? yes<br />How many months are there until your birthday? 4 months<br />Did you like anyone last summer? luis urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:4588 2008-10-09T08:46:45Z 2008-10-09T08:46:45Z Me and Luis have had it UP TO HERE lol<br /><br />With my mom's bullshit.<br /><br />Today Luis came over a little earlier than usual, what difference does it make? My mom gets angry because he's there with me alone ......No not really, My sister was home for a while and so was my father and then they both left my sister dropped off my nephew and he was up our ass the whole time until my mom came home.<br /><br />So she cooks dinner etc and then oh God, she comes into the room when Luis is giving me a little huggle/cuddle. So she flips, "what the fuck are you guys doing?! I DON'T WANT YOU FUCKING TOUCHING MY DAUGHTER WHEN I'M HERE I DON'T WANT YOU EVER TOUCHING HER I DON'T WANT YOU NEAR HER"<br /><br />.......O o;....<br /><br />So Luis loses it, he says he'll leave he'll just leave, and they argue back and forth my mom yelling about how he is preventing me from being a woman, that he is here everyday (lies he only comes twice a week) she starts yelling about how I shouldn't be able to date, guys only manipulate and control.<br /><br />....This is very frustrating, sorry mom but just because your husband is a piece of shit doesn't mean that i will end up like you. So Luis is leaving and she decides to push him out the door pretty hard telling him she never wants to see his fucking face ever again and that he's never allowed over here again. She locks the door...<br /><br />Let me mention, Luis's hand is broken from punching the floor in his room..... so she probably hurt him on his way out.<br /><br />After he leaves I get into an arguement with my mom telling her that we try our best to respect her but she's always being such a immature bitch etc etc she retaliates with things like you aren't even in college, you don't have a job etc....<br /><br />I have been trying very hard lately to apply....but I never hear back and I have tried mroe than once at several places....<br /><br />She talks about how she wants to move to rhode island and I tell he rno one is stopping you life would be so much better if you left<br /><br />And honestly, no one would sto her. My father said so himself, he doesn't want to live with the devil he said.<br /><br />Luis calls me a little later from his friend's house and we have come to the decision that it has gone too far and we must bring another adult into this situation , his oldest sister or his mother. Choose wisely because his family is quite crazy and will do their best to protect me and Luis.<br /><br />But since my mom won't listen to us, she needs to be talked to by an actual adult because she has gone too far now...way too far. I cannot wait to see where this goes honestly, because Luis's family knows my mom is way too overprotective and I'm fucking 18.<br /><br />My mom tells me still where I can and can not go and if I go somewhere she doesn't want me to then she will drive arround the whole city lookign for me and when she finds me she will drag me home one way or another. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:4180 2008-09-24T19:53:34Z 2008-09-24T19:53:34Z So everything is fine on luis's end now. He wanted me to do something for him recently, to make a list of his bad qualities and god qualities and see which weighs out the other. I will try my best lol<br /><br />- Good<br /><br />- His caring nature for people as long as they are nice to him<br />- A very good quality to have is to give the right impression, to people he first meets he comes off as a very kind person, that is all good.<br />- I myself have bad skills when it comes to seeing babies, or children, I don't know how to act towards them and usually arround babies I just kinda.....stare at them but don't really know what to do, even though I've cared for so many. He seems to have a natural instinct when it comes to things like that though.<br />- He is open minded, just like me. Well maybe he's more open minded than me in the video game department. But I really appreciate it that he doesn't think the music I listen to is weird, or my habbits. ;3<br />- His feminimity adds to his sensitivity towards others and especially me, he shows that he cares very well.<br />- It may be immature to rant so much but at least he's open about his problems and shares them instead of bottling it up inside.<br />- He doesn't care about the way I look and I appreciate that the most because many people do not find me attractive at all to any extent.<br />- He has his priorities straight and he won't ditch me to go play some cool video game.<br />- His sense of humor, very similar to my own so it's easy to mak ehim laugh or for him to make me laugh. ;3<br />- The passion he puts into each kiss you can just tell just how much he really does love me.<br />- From what I can tell, to him, sex is just not something to do randomly but rather something more romantic.<br />- Oh yeah he is romantic too.....<br /><br /><br />- Bad<br /><br />- I'm his first serious relationship which in turn makes him naive to certain things in the relationship....Like for example, still clinging to me even if I did cheat on him....(But to be selfish I can't complain, I did change my ways after all, for the sake of me and him)<br />- He let's stress overwhelm him too easily, like I can understand that school is putting alot of pressure on you but please try to be optimistic~.<br />- His ranting can get a little overwhelming but I handle that quite well and try to comfort him as best as I can, most people find this annoying and use it as a reason to talk behind his back, calling it, "immature". <br />- Sometimes his nature of caring can overpower his caring for himself....even though he is healthy.<br />- Sometimes his video game habbits get on my nerves, but I instigate it by showing him some of my own favorite games lol it onyl seems to bother me when he goes against his friends though that....retarded laugh the way they act, just brusting out laughing like retards and cussing "FUCK YOU I LOST FUCK YOU LOLOLOLOLO" ........bleh GROW UP<br /><br /><br />That's all for now if I find any thing else to add I will. lol But I have to go wash the dishes right now for the sake of the sanity fo the peopel int his house before I get killed or something lol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:3888 2008-09-20T10:30:59Z 2008-09-20T10:30:59Z And I'm not very happy right now....<br /><br />Today was a regular day, I had Luis come over and we decided to head otu t the mall, we came back home and went with my mom to the little store she's always hanging out at......And then went home after dropping Luis at his home. <br /><br />I was enjoying the remainder of my night when I recieve a call....<br /><br />I was wonderign who it was so late at night because no one really calls that late and it was Luis. Saying that his sister's father......got stabbed and that his house was a bloody mess. <br /><br />First of all my first reaction is shit.....Why is his mother still fucking arround with this asshole he put their family in danger, then I realised that Luis's life could eb threatened...And now I'm pissed but I want to cry also because I'm worried for him.<br /><br />Later, the cops come to his house and he hangs up on me..... <br /><br />He calls back when I was asleep at 5 int he mornign to tell me they've been removed from their house and that the house is under the care of police and detectives as part fo the ivestigation.<br /><br />And also that apparently the guy who tried to stab his sisters father....is either dead, or really badly injured to the point of death. He shot him. So now this is all over the news.<br /><br />I hope that Luis's mom realises that to sacrifice her, and her family's safty just to not be alone, is not worth it......<br /><br />I hope, with all my might, that nothing happens to them.<br /><br />I have a really really bad feeling.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:3673 2008-09-04T06:00:01Z 2008-09-04T06:00:01Z So LuLu started school ^o^ I'm so happy that he's in school now~. Even though he has to work his butt off now. XD He was over my house the other day and he got his number of his step father's house and cell and he called him and he sounds like a nice guy and he SAID he would come visit LuLu On the 19th but what reason do I have to trust what a step father says? Usually they don't keep their end of the deal.....Or as far as I've seen.<br /><br />Right now I'm working on getting my birth ceritifcate so that I can get my ID. So that I can go to stores and show them that I'm 18 because I'm so short they won't believe me... I NEED A JOB~!!!<br /><br />Anyways here are some random survey things...<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a> <br /><br />How old were you when you had your first relationship? - I was....12 or 11?<br /><br />Are you taken/single? - I am taken.<br /><br />How old were you when you had your first kiss? - I was like 6 LOL<br /><br />What color is your underwear? - Green ;D<br /><br />Do you like anyone right now? - Nah<br /><br />Ever had your heartbroken? - Of course...<br /><br />Miss anyone right now? - LuLu<br /><br />Who was the last person you sent a text to? - Eddie<br /><br />Last person to text you? - Eddie<br /><br />Last person you saw? - My mom/dad lol<br /><br />What was the last thing you said to someone? - "No I didn't"<br /><br />Who do you trust the most in your life? - LuLu<br /><br />Who do you love most? - LuLu<br /><br />Ever been in love? - Yuhp<br /><br />Who has hurt you the most? - Sascha...<br /><br />Has a tragedy ever happened in your life? - Mmm yeah alot of relatives died....<br /><br />Are you happy? - Yes I am<br /><br />How many good friends do you have? - Not many...<br /><br />Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?- There are songs that remind me of people but that doesn't stop me from listening.<br /><br />Have you ever cheated on a partner? - Yeah...<br /><br />Ever been cheated on? - Yuhp<br /><br />Ever been told someone loved you? - Yeah<br /><br />Ever told someone you loved them and meant it? - Of course<br /><br />Not meant it? - Yuhp<br /><br />Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now? - Yes I am.<br /><br />What is your idea of true love? - My idea of true love is when you can accept that person for who they are no matter their flaws, trust is also a big part in a relationship and communication, the ability to solve problems by discussing rather than arguing and to understand when you're having sex that it is for the love of your partner and no tbecause you just want some ass...When you care for that person alot and you think of them alot.<br /><br />When they slip, do you think you can let go the small stuff? - Of course but I won't forget...<br /><br />Do you believe in love at first sight? - Not anymore I used to when I was younger<br /><br />Why or why not? - Because you need to egt to know the person first.<br /><br />Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love? - Yes.<br /><br />Do you believe that love can be found in bars or is that too much of a risk? - A risk? That's fucking retarded not a risk.<br /> <br />Should people go to bars to find love? - No because most of the time people ar eunder the influence.<br /><br />Or should they go to places where people who like what they like hang out? - I dunno....<br /><br />Should men and women be expecting the other to buy the other gifts? - It's not about materialism.<br /><br />Who should wear the pants in the relationship or should it be a mutual give and take? - I think it should be mutual urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:3471 2008-09-02T07:11:21Z 2008-09-02T07:11:21Z So an update on Luis's current problem... He got transferred into Harding, but can't start until he gets record from Cnetral stating that they no longer want him there, and also found out that the English class that eh took and passed in his Junior year came up as Invalid on his transcript... so now he doesn't have enough credits to be a Senior....So he's a junior until further notice. He also needs to get a physical done or else ehw on't be able to start either.<br /><br />I'm proud that he's actually amking an effort to continue.... Really am, I'm just hoping that eh continues to work to get into that school so that he can continue and finish his education~.<br /><br />Other than that this weekend was pretty fun, spent it all with LuLu. We watched 3x3 Eyes, an anime, and it was really good~. I liked it alot just wish that there was more to it than just that. Haha. Also started watching True Tears with him.<br /><br />Recently I've just been focusing on old anime that I want to catch up on because the newer animes these days doesn't really appeal to me. I'm about to drop Koihime Musou....<br /><br />But regardless it was nice to have LuLu arround.... cuddling him and such ^ ^<br /><br />Right now my current goal is to get an ID~. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:3253 2008-08-28T18:23:52Z 2008-08-28T18:23:52Z Okei so I'm taking a nap all comfy in my bed wondering, hm I wonder how Luis's day was at school today, I get a phone call, guess who it is? Luis...<br /><br />...He got kicked out of the High School we used to go to.<br /><br />My question is why they waited until now to tell him? Why didn't they tell him last year instead of waiting all the way until this year?<br /><br />Haha, oh well there's not much I can say or do now, it's not like I can go to the principal and be like HEY Y U DO DAT.... It's all on him now and I don't know whether to be disappointed in him for screwing up or thinking it was his fault so why should I care or if I should feel bad and blame the school.<br /><br />....I'm even thinking of breaking up with him at this point....<br /><br />I told myself that if he didn't pull it together that I would break up with him, if he calls me again and tells me something like he dropped out or giving up or anything close to it.... We're done....<br /><br />5 years down the drain....<br /><br />...I wish he could just be so much better at school.<br /><br />I don't know what to do... do I help him? Stay by his side and give hims trength? Sympathize with him? What...? <br /><br />We'll just wait and see I guess. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:3048 2008-08-25T08:43:20Z 2008-08-25T08:43:20Z I haven't updated in a logn time so this will be long, I've been playing on the JP servers for PSU alot lately so there isn't reall ymuch to update about anyways unless you want me to tell you how the Japanese PSU servers are so much better than the US and that I feel more at ease arround Japanese peopel than americans....? <br /><br />I'm beyond my stress level. It's to the poitn where I start ignoring my problems and jsut focus on other things to keep me busy.<br /><br />During High School I never did anythign for College, and now I regret it, I wanted to tae a year off and just relax and at the same tiem start applying and workign towards college but now when I look at all these thigns about Final Aid FASFA and SATs ACTs SAT subject tests..... Ugh. I do plan on taking all three though just so I can see how I do but it costs money to take them~!<br /><br />How aggrivating....<br /><br />I look arround and there aren't anything I really want to do it's so aggrivating....<br /><br />I want to major in Japanese but colleges that have that are so expensive like 50k a year for intuition WTF?!?!<br /><br />And the college closest to me, the community one, if I go there they don't really have Linguistics, Foreign Language type thing they just have certain languages and the rest is business, math, computer, technology. I guess I could get into computers and then transfer over to the other college and change my major to Linguistics, you CAN do that right? I don't even know...<br /><br />My sister said some bullshit about students that apply and are admtited to Sacre Heart University who live in Fairfield County get admitted for FREE. No intuition.<br /><br />I would like to go there I guess. They have Linguistics and Foreign Language and this is in affect for 2008-2009 I hope they mean for both school years.<br /><br />I'd rather go to Sacred Heart than go to Housatonic for 2 years and transfer over to another school.<br /><br />If all else fails I'll just go to some really crappy college.....A technical college or just Housatonic for 2 years, They can't turn me down I live in their community after all~!<br /><br />I hate school it's so damn fucking stressful it doesn't help that my high school never gave me my diploma....<br /><br />so Luis is also starting school this week and it's sad that he didn't go his physical and msotlikely wont get his schedule when he goes but I'm hoping this year that he gets it together and gets serious, he really needs to face reality and the fact that just because he lives a life of poverty does not mean that he must act so hopeless.<br /><br />I pray that he gets through, to whatever God/Goddes that will listen... Good God/Goddess that is.<br /><br />I will help him as much as I can with my knowledge of languages and of english literature but I can't help with math science and history maybe, I hope that he will come to me because I will be here with open arms awaiting his arrival with his questions~! <br /><br />He promised me, after all, that eh would come on the first or second day of school to my house and I hope he does so he can tell me....just how it is now and who he's met, the only thing I'm afraid of is all the females who will be all up on him, not that I don't trust him but he's usually helpless in those situations, even though he almsot punched his won cousin in the face for touching his neck, and some other girl for touching his ears. I also tend to lose my temper if some girl tries to do something to LuLu, that's why they mostly stayed away and girls would get jealous and say EWWWWW THEY ARE SUCH A UGLY COUPLE. Bah they don't know anything about mature relationship.<br /><br />Also I'm afraid of girls pressuring him telling him to stay away form me or break up with me because we're not the same year and its pointless being with me because I'll be in college.....<br /><br />I don't lan on letting anything get int he way though I will heal whaetver wounds are opened or made in our relationship.<br /><br />Today I took a nap after he left my house because I had a really bad head ache and I dreamed of school.... that I was there in the evening and the school was flooded with a foot or so of water and there were students runnign to classrooms and Luis was there , standing, staring, and I ran to him, I was an angel with a long dress and I was floating above the water and I was floating towards him and I took him into my arms andheld him lovingly and he cried into my chest.....Weird dream huh, in another section of my dream I was in the basement of the school running through rooms that were not supposed to be there, huge rooms with diferent things int hem like instruments and honestly being in a baement in huge empty rooms with silence is very frightening to me, whenever I go into BJs which is a huge store that wasn't really designed any specific way it's like they just stuffed a bunch of bulk items into shelves and called it a store but whenever I'm there I don't liek the feeling I get near the giant heater looking thing that makes a really loud RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR noise.....<br /><br />Lol I'm such a weirdo.<br /><br />Reminds me o another dream I had where I was in school and in class with some girl and we went to lunch and Luis was int he same class and he told me to watch his stuff while he went up to get his lunch, whiel he was up there I looked through hsi stuff and I found a green notebook.... I ate that one O_o;.......and then found another oen that was purple and I looked through it, there were notes from clases and in the back were peotry written just for me and littel doodles he did. Haha.<br /><br />Sometimes I have sad dreams like one where this girl was seducing him and he wasnt doing anythign about it, maybe because I don't know what eh would do in those situations? But I end up cussing out the girl or killing her, scary huh?<br /><br />Well, hopefully I'll be able to spend tiem with him more this week, saw him all this weekend so I'm good to wait until thursday or friday, if it comes down to it I'd just ick him up from hsi house on Friday. I want to ehar about his classes and how manty periods he has this years hopefully not alot. ^ ^; so he can get out early and I can go stalk him lol. <br /><br />Man I wish I could drive, I'm albino so I'm not allowed to, it's illegal for albinos to drive because of our horrible vision, I have alot of albinos in my family that drive regardless though but that's going to be a problem in the future huh? Commuting will be a big problem I'd prolly have to get up really early with my LuLu and he'd have to take me to work, oh yeah it may seem kind fo drastic to think that much ahead of myself that I'd know we'd be together int he future but I believe it'll be that way....<br /><br />Afterall it's been 5 years or so and nothing has really broken us, not even time apart there were times when I used to think, "Damn it's over isn't it, what me and him had is over..." and in the end he took me into his arms. Like those times when we couldnt' see each other over the summer.... And when school satrted he would love me just as much as at the end of the year. ^ ^;<br /><br />Ehhhh my heart goes doki doki when I look at teh photographs taken at my last day of at the school....my heart pounds when I think of him I get anxious and all fluttery nervous......<br /><br />When I cuddle him I feel at so much ease........man I know I've felt this way for other people but not for this long, it never lasted this long, the feeling always faded away and got boring with them but with him it never ends.....<br /><br />When I'm with him it's like his energy fuels me, he's like an endless fountain of energy for me, i feed off of it and I'm like hsi angel that keeps him strong and going. In the end no matter what I always make him ahppy and he does the same for me and I like it this way I hope it doesn't go away. Lol<br /><br />Man thinkign about him just washes all my stress and frustartion away.<br /><br />I'll have to go back to school this week, scary sounding but it's just to see what the hell they did with my diploma on the day of my graudation, I took care of my obligations but maybe she pulled my diploma anyways, that secretary, I hope she didn't like...... go to a different school or something lol.<br /><br />I'm going to hate talking with the secretary and my cousnelor @_@; they're goign to ask about college and if my mom is arround she'll be liek SHE HASN'T BOTHERED TO DO ANYTHIGN YET DURR....<br /><br />My mom nor anyone else I know wants me to wait a year and honestly I'm so tired and stressed that fi I go this year I'd prolly not make much effort, I hope hope hope that I get all this college stuff on the go this year.....<br /><br />Please wish me good luck~. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:2793 2008-08-09T01:07:15Z 2008-08-09T01:07:15Z KAITO - Kimi no Uwasa Well I decided to accept the differences between me and Luis since not everything about him will be perfect, especially his video gamer side XD.... I sometimes talk like he does and so I guess if you can't beat 'em join 'em. I'm quite done becoming upset when he talks about games like he knows so much about it, I'm ready to take him on now. Lol.<br /><br />Well today was my last day on USPSU but I didn't use it to my advantage at all this past week, I don't see any point really nto like I have any friends left from my old accounts and I would play if Luis could but I'm not financially stable enough to hold up 2 accounts. <br /><br />I also decided to cut off all contact with my ex-bf John recently because trying to be friends with someone who only wants to make me feel like crap all the time is not good for my health. Not to mention my mom doesn't like it when I talk to him anyways, I have better friends than him and alot more mature at that.<br /><br />I play on my friend's JP PSU accounts now because he let me use it until it becomes impossible for him to pay but hoenstly it's hard to play nwo since my controler is dying. Grrrr. Honestly I'm becoming tired with all my controlers dying off so fast I don't understand what I'm doing wrong in caring for them. O o;<br /><br />But if I get another one I'll be really sure nto to anything to harm it or anything like that. XD<br /><br />My friend Cambrian might buy me a PS2 controler converter.... That'll be nice but I don't want to depend on his money really since he's only a friend, but then again I'm pretty much ont he poor side...<br /><br />We'll see though. I'm prolly gonna end up feeling bad. XD But I cant turn it down especially since my PS2 controlers are in so much more better shape than my PC ones for some reason. What I really don't udnerstand is HOW they break, since the wires don't get exposed and I never throw them arround or anything.... Hmph. Angers me. lol<br /><br />Anyways I'ma go be a nub somewhere else now. Peace nukkas. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:2399 2008-08-02T03:49:19Z 2008-08-02T03:49:19Z Lia - Disentagration I have this problem where I liek to touch things alot. Like if I see something I have to touch it and osmetimes the ways that I do aren't really good for the product or the item. Lol.<br /><br />So today I was sitting in the living room of my friend's house and his younger brother had trashed the whole living room and of course me being the curious one was so tempted to touch his shiney silver flat PS2..... Uhhhh yeah I broke the ribbon that's attached to the laser. I guess just going to have to see how long it takes his slow ass to realise that it's broken he doesn't even use it @_@; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:2110 2008-07-30T16:13:15Z 2008-07-30T16:13:15Z Would you pissed if yoru house keeper went though all of your shit while you were at work? I would be....<br /><br />I need to hurry and finish the Slayers series...... I need to catch up so that I can start watching Slayers Revolution<br /><br />Here's a survey a felt like taking~.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a> <br /><br />1.do you shave? yeah<br />2.what do you shave? legs, armpits<br />3.why? Cos if I don't my legs get all tichy when I wear jeans and my armpits just suck when their hairy.<br />4.what colour is your razor? Orange~.<br />5.what size is your bed? King?<br />6.do you like it? Yesh<br />7.you're going on a date for a walk around the lake then a coffee at a cafe. what do you wear FROM your closet? Somethign that makes me look good but not too fancy.<br />8.Would you go naked in a bathtub with a naked old man/woman with each of you having a bar of soap and soap each other till the bars of soap run out for a million dollars? ...........WHAT?!<br />9.if you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think? I wouldn't say no to that.<br />10. letter or e-mail? e-mail<br />11.if world war III broke out, what would you say? I knew it.<br />12.buttons or boxes? Buttons<br />13.which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? LuLu, my oldest sister, Cambrian, Jessica, Jenna<br />14.what's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you off? thong<br />15. what's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you on? If LuLu wears collared shirts he looks really sexy.<br />16. what do you think of soulmates? I got mine.<br />17.florida or cali? Florida.<br />18.is the world screwed? Basically...<br />19.is cussing a neccesity in life? Not really but I do it anyways.<br />20.what's an object you can't live without? My blanky.<br />21.can you live without the microwave? I guess.<br />22.You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day? Normal but I'd probably be thinking about the dream like "hat the fuck...."<br />23.would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog? Do I have to choose? @_@ Fine.... Barely making it with a dog.<br />24. how's your schoolwork for you right now? Im not in school<br />25.what's something someone's done to make you hold a grudge against them? Make fun of me.<br />26.Favorite weather: Overcast.<br />27.what's one look trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? Lulu<br />28.what's one personality trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? Femininity<br />29.do you know what 143 means? No<br />30.who's phone number are you hoping to get? LuLu.... If he had one.<br />31.describe melancholy, if you don't know, then skip this question. sad<br />32.describe mellow: calm<br />33.do you beleive in ghosts? why or why not? Yeah because I'm special.<br />34.what time did you sleep last night? Like 5 or 6 in the morning....Lol<br />35.which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now? LuLu<br />36.is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? I don't think so.<br />37.would you rather be married in venice, italy, or honolulu, hawaii? Venice, Italy.<br />38.would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? Sandwhiches<br />39.(guys) how would you feel if you gave a girl a flower? <br />(girls) how would you feel if you got a flower from a guy? That'd be kawaiiiiiii desu nya<br />40.do you want to drop school? Hell no<br />41.what do you think of the word, "no pain, no gain"? That's a phrase.... but I guess it's true.<br />42.what do you think of the quote "eyes are the passageways into the soul"? That's true.<br />43.What do you think of sleep? Mmmmm I love it ;3<br />44.if you had the chance to slow down your growth now and live to 500 years but it's like a 50 year old body by then, would you go for it? No.<br />45.at one point in a girl/guy friendship will one them them like each other even if it's only for a little bit. true or false? By personal experience it's true.<br />46.Are you a procrastinator? Hell yeah.<br />47.waffles or pancakes? Waffles<br />48.how's your cereal in your bowl? Half of it is soft and half of it is almost being soggy.<br />49.what's an annoying trait about you? I guess I can get annoying when I speak my mind too much.<br />50.football or rugby? I dunno.<br />51. hat or visor? Don't like either.<br />52.ice skating or rollerblading? Ice skatign so I cna bust my ass on somethign cold.<br />53.(guys) your gf has long beautiful hair which you love, she comes to school the next day with a short crop cut. what do you HONESTLY think? <br />(girls) your bf has hair you love. he comes to school the next day with a shiny head. what do you HONESTLY think? I would cry.... Don't go BALD.<br />54.pizza or burgers? Pizza<br />55.what colour is your jacket? Beige<br />56.what's something you ALWAYS have on you? Skin.... if you mean accessories then I have glasses.<br />57.what do you think of guys with nailpolishes? Ewwww<br />58.do you stay in bed thinking or do you fall alseep in 5 seconds? I stay in bed thinking.<br />59.would you rather go to a boarding school, private school, or an all girls or guys school? private school<br />60.there's a high school that'll be on a cruise ship and you have the opportunity to go. it's your last year at school. do you go for it? Nope.<br />61. who do you want to take with you to the prom? LuLu<br />62. your bf/gf gets drunk at a party. in their state of drunkness, they babble about that one time they fooled around with someone else while you were together. they wake up the next morning with a slight memory that did something stupid. what do you do? Be pissed~ but I would ask him about it.<br />63.is cyber sex considered cheating? Yeah. <br />64.how do you react to change? I try my best to deal with it.<br />65.are you happy? Yuhp<br />66.favorite berries: Raspberries<br />67.what's one facial feature you'd like to change about yourself? Nothing I like it all.... Maybe Acne<br />68.do you take a shower after a bath? Either way you put it you'd be clean.<br />69.what's colour's your towel? yellow<br />70.what do you think of knuckle cracking? I do it.<br />71.what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? I thought I was being selfish.<br />72.chalk or crayons? Crayons<br />73.how's you happiness level right now? 0 (low)- 10 (high): 9<br />74. coffee, tea, or me? Coffee<br />75.wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? LuLu<br />76.who was the last person who complimented you? Lulu<br />77.what's wrong with your school? It's poor<br />78.do you know what an aphrodisiac is? Yes<br />79.who do you wish you could kiss? LuLu<br />80.movies at home on in a theater? I like both really.<br />81.wanna live in a castle? naah<br />82.isn't gondola a cool word? No?<br />83.what coat do you wear in the winter? Some coat I have.<br />84.(girls)what's something about guys you don't get? .....How they try to show off to each other when it comes to video games.<br />85.(guys) what's something about girls you don't get?<br />86.who was better in rush hour/rush hour 2? They were both good.<br />87.it someone said you were hot, what would you think? I would think they were dumb.<br />88. you go to your bf/gf's house for the first time and in his/her room, and everywhere is... you. what do you think? ...That'd be scary<br />89.what happens when you hear the word christmas? I think of what I want.<br />90.does being a psycho sound appealing? Not really<br />91.what food brings back good memories? Pasteliyos<br />92.do you talk to yourself? yeah<br />93.sun or moon? Moon<br />94.what's your opinion on love? I think it only happens to the lucky people, and it's overly abused word.<br />95.what's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? Cuddley times.<br />96.would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? Ballroom dancing.<br />97.do you think you can afford to lose weight? No.<br />98.if you could dye your hair any colour, what would you dye it? I dun wasnna.<br />99.what's the nicest thing anyone has ever told you? You're gifted.<br />100.how was the survey? Ehhh...<br />***<br /><br />Have you ___________ this summer?<br />.:x given yourself a mani and pedi? no<br />.:x had a party? yes<br />.:x spent the night with a friend? no<br />.:x laughed until your stomach hurt? no<br />.:x gone on a vacation? no<br />.:x tanned? no<br />.:x went to a camp? no<br />.:x swam? no<br />.:x went to the movies? no<br />.:x gone shopping? yeah<br />.:x are you even out of school? yeah<br />.:x gotten freakishly bored? yeah<br /><br />Would you rather….<br />.:x go to Hawaii or go to the Bahamas? Hawaii <br />.:x go to the movies or go shopping? Movies<br />.:x Spend the night with a friend or go to a party? spend the night with a friend<br />.:x Host a party or have a friend spend the night? friend spend the night<br />.:x Tan in a salon or lay out? If I COULD tan I would lay out.<br />.:x Watch TV or get online? DO BOTH<br />.:x Have your dream guy or have the ultimate trip to a tropical island with all your friends in the best suite in the hotel? I would pick the vaacation with my LuLu<br /><br />YOUR FRIENDS<br />Which friend is the....<br />.: x craziest- Mathew<br />.: x sweetest- Joshua<br />.: x prettiest- Jessica<br />.: x smartest- Travis<br />.: x girly- Jessica<br />.: x easiest to be grossed out- DJ<br />.: x blondest- LuLu<br />.: x honest- LuLu<br />.: x trustworthy- Jessica<br />.: x sporty- no one<br />.: x animal lover- no one really<br />.: x computer genius- no one<br />.: x funniest- .....joshua?<br />.: x drama person- joshua<br />.: x band person- ian<br />.: x person that always gets their homework done- jessica<br />.: x flirtiest- ....<br /><br />About your friends and past friends<br />.: x which friend have you known the longest? jessica<br />.: x which friend have you known the least? travis<br />.: x who was your first best friend? jessica<br />.: x is he/she still you friend? yes<br />.: x which friend do you miss the most? jenna<br />.: x has one of your best friends ever moved away? yeah<br />.: x who has the most classes with you? .....I graduated.<br /><br />YOUR PERFECT GUY<br />I HAVE ONE~~~~~!!!!<br /><br />FAVORITES<br />[x]drink: Lemonade, Pepsi, Arizona tea Raspberry Flavor, Raspberry Cramberry Juice, Passion Fruit, iced tea<br />[x]food: Puerto Rican food and soem Japanese and Italian<br />[x]school: .........<br />[x]color: red, pink, silver, blue, gold, beige<br />[x]year: .............<br />[x]artist: Yukirin<br />[x]animal: dogs<br />[x]band: ......<br /><br />DiSLIKE OR LIKE?<br />[x]dogs: Like<br />[x]cats: they're okei<br />[x]TV: I like it<br />[x]books: like<br />[x]school:.....<br />[x]homework: bleh<br />[x]haircuts: Certain one<br />[x]Jennifer Lopez: she's okei<br />[x]AIM: ehhh...<br />[x]cookies: Yeah<br />[x]family: Nope<br />[x]RAP: Yeah<br />[x]McDonalds: Nope<br />[x]Burger King: Nope<br />[x]Wendy's: It's okei<br />[x]KFC: Mmmmm<br />[x]your teacher(s): Only a few<br />[x]reading: Yeah<br />[x]Usher: ????????<br />[x]bananas: I like<br />[x]chocolate: sometimes<br /><br />TRUE OR FALSE?<br />[x]You are cool. .....?<br />[x]You have a lot of friends that you can't even count how many. false<br />[x]You love pizza. .....maybe<br />[x]You currently like someone. I LOVE someone<br />[x]You have more than one best friend. true<br />[x]You recently got hugged or kissed. true<br />[x]You ate your favorite food today. false<br />[x]You just got out of school. true<br />[x]You are pretty. I guess<br />[x]You are tall. false<br />[x]You are super smart. maybe<br />[x]You get good grades. FAAAAAALSE<br />[x]I'm glad this survey wasn't so long. ehhh<br />***<br />-BASICS- <br />Name: Valeria Colon<br />Age: 18<br />School:None right now <br />Occupation: None<br />Hometown: Buffet....Uhhh Bridgeport<br />Town where you are living: Bridgeport<br />Sports you play: none <br />Daily mode(s) of transportation: My mom drives me everywhere or I walk<br />Relationship status: Engaged<br />IQ (seriously): ........I dunno<br /><br />-FAV<br />Do you feel that golf is a a game or sport? I dunno.......<br />Do you like the President? NO<br />What is your proudest moment? When I got 3rd place in the Japanese poetry reading contest.<br />Does Nilla Wafers in Pudding sound unappetizing to you? Why or why not? Yeah I wanan try that now~.<br />What are you avoiding by filling out this survey? Being bored<br />Are you successful? Sort of<br />What is the funniest thing you have ever seen? MegaMan hentai~<br />Do you like your life? Why or why not? Of course I do I have my LuLu<br />What is your greatest achievement? Surviving 4 years in that damn high school.<br />What is your most embarrassing moment? When I tripped and fell in my sog's piss face first mind you.<br />Do you think that people are born homosexual or that it is a society derived attribute aquired during the growth process? Why? I think it depends on how the person is raised.<br /><br />-RANDOM QUESTIONS- <br />Did you like the "Back to the Future" movies? haven't seen them<br />Ghosts and Witches: real or hoax? I think ghosts are real.<br />Do you like Micheal Jackson or do you think he is a has-been? I like his music.<br />Do you speak any other language besides English? Japanese, Spanish, French<br />Do you find the "Iron Chef" humorous? I like watching it.<br />Do you think that cheerleading is a sport? Hell no<br />What type of computer are you using right now? eMachines<br />Do you own an article of clothing that is pleather? No.<br />Are you watching TV or listening to music right now? Nope.<br />What does your hair look like right now? It's crazy.<br />What time is it? 4:51 A.M<br />Do you enjoy Hanson's music? Why or why not? Who's that?<br /><br />-PERSONAL QUESTIONS- <br />What is in your shower right now? Stuff to keep you clean.<br />How much of that do you actually use? All of it.<br />What time do you wake up in the morning? Usually in the afternoon<br />What is your daily routine? get up, use the bathroom brush mah teefs, do something to clean, sit down at teh computer.... check stuff, get "breakfast", then call my LuLu<br />Do you have a lot of friends? Nah<br />Do you have an actual best friend? yeh<br />Do you live with anyone? yeah<br />Your room: spacious/tiny? spacious personal/cluttered? cluttered bare/busy? medium, nice/ugly? I like it.<br />What do you like most about yourself? I like my petite body.<br />Does your job suck? I dont got one.<br />Do you get along with your family? not always<br />Do you enjoy the people in your everyday life? Yeah<br />Are you critical or gullible? Critical<br />Do you trust people? Why or why not? No I don't if I don't them very well because I've had bad experiences with my personal information.<br />What is in your purse/bag/briefcase right now? change<br />What defines the perfect partner for you? LuLu<br /><br />-BODY QUESTIONS- <br />Do you have good personal hygene? yes<br />What ____ do you use? (if any) <br />-facewash: nutrigena acne wash<br />-soap/bodywash: I use anything that my mom or sister bought for themselves<br />-lotion: I forgot what it's called but it's form victoria secret<br />-perfume: None<br />-toothpaste: Colgate<br />-mouthwash: none<br />-floss: none because we don't have any<br />-deodorant: SECRET CLINICAL STRENGTH SERIOUS BUSINESS<br />-shampoo/conditioner: pantene pro v<br />-mints: I dunno<br />-hair products: gel<br />Do you clean (Q-Tip) your ears? yeah<br />Are you in good physical shape? for the most part<br />What are your eating habits? They're not very good<br />What is your hair color? blonde<br />Do you smoke/dip? no<br />How often do you shower? every day<br />What do you usualy drink during the average day? Anythign that's in the fridge.<br />Do you paint your nails? If so, what color? no<br />Do you wear retainers/braces? no<br />Do you have contacts/glasses? glasses <br />Do you think that you are a healthy person? for the most part<br /><br />-ETC- <br />How often do you get online? very often<br />Do you write letters to people? no<br />Are you afraid to ride in a plane? Why? no<br />Are you tired? sort of<br />Do you want to go to sleep? maybe<br />Have you ever been in love? I am<br />Are you attracted to anyone? Yeah<br />Do you wish you had someone right now? I have someone<br />Are you away from home and do you miss it? No<br />Are you at home and wish you were somewhere else? Yeah<br />Do you think that AL Gore's beard look makes him look laid back and rustic or makes him look like he's trying to look laid back and rustic? Uhhh I don't care...<br />What is the best coffee you've ever had and where can I get it? Star Bucks or Dunkin Donuts<br />What time is it? 5:04 A.M<br /><br />FAVORITES- <br />Flower: tulips, roses, and dandylions<br />Writing utensil: pen<br />Store: FYE?<br />Place: ...home?<br />Article of clothing you own: i dunno<br />TV Show: i don't have one anymore<br />Subject: used to be Japanese<br /><br />-THOUGHT PROVOKING QUESTIONS- <br />If you could be any insect in any time period, what and where would you be? A praying mantiss because they kick ass and during the bombing in Hiroshima.<br />What do you want to be when you grow up? Nihongo no Sensei<br />Are you intelligent? yes<br />Why do you drive on a parkway and park on a driveway? Good question...<br />***<br />9/11<br />2) Where were you on the morning that everything went down? school<br />3) What went through your mind at that exact moment you heard the news? I was shocked and afraid that they might do it to us too<br />4) What did your work or school do that day? They let us out at 9:30 A.M<br />5) Did your family react differently that night you got home? (ex: say they love you more then usual?) No? They were just watchign the news excessively and we lit a candle<br />6) Did you and/or your family and friends do anything special within that week to support your country? (ex: go to church, a memorial, give blood?) No.... All we did was light a candle<br />7) Did you lose any family or friends in the 9*11 tragedy? Didn't lose anyone but had friends that got hurt.<br />8) Do you know anyone that lost someone? One of the teachers that were in my middle school did.<br />9) Have you ever been to the world trade center? Yeah before and after.<br />10) Have you ever been to the pentagon? no<br />11) If you could, would you have enrolled in the armed forces to fight for your country? no<br />12) did you? If so, with whom did you sign on with? uh.<br />13) Did you sit for a week and just watch TV programs in shock? nope not really<br />14) Do you think that our president, George Bush and other governmental leaders are doing a good job handling the situation we are in? nope<br />15) Do you think the way they have improved airports will help any? Maybe<br />16) Do you feel safe in an airport or big pavillion? Yeah.<br />17) Will you fly? Have you flown since 9*11? Yeah<br />18) Where so you think Osama Bin Laden is? They hung him.<br />19) Do you think he is alive? no<br />20) Do you think we should let foreigners into our country? Yeah but they need to be more protective.<br />21) Any last thoughts on 9*11*01? .....It doesn't feel like we're at war at all right now.<br />***<br />1. Have you ever gotten soap in your mouth for cursing? Do you think that's right to do to kids who curse?: Nope I got a slap in dah face and no i dont' think that's right to do to kids.<br />2. What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start watching horror movies with lots of gore?: It depends on how easily they can be affected by the movie at the age they are<br />3. Do you know what the word "polyamorous"? And did you ever hear that song by Breaking Benjamin?: no no<br />4. How many bug bites do you currently have?: one<br />5. What's one word you always have trouble spelling and can't remember the correct spelling of?: Feminimity?<br />6. What's one band that really sucks live?: dunno<br />7. Do you go to Warped Tour? Why or why not?: nono nonononoono<br />8. Do you have any windchimes outside your house? How many?: Alot<br />9. Do you know someone who actually had someone give them a bouquet of real roses and one fake one, and tell them they'll love them until the last one dies?: Awwwwwww that's romantic but no.<br />10. Which do you like better, Firefox or Internet Explorer?: Opera<br />11. Who is the most attractive person on your street?: ......no one<br />12. Do you have a flat stomach? Would you ever wear a belly shirt to show it off?: I do but I wouldn't show it off unless it was for my LuLu<br />13. Which do you prefer on yourself, long or short hair?: short<br />14. What about on your preferred sex? Long or short?: depends<br />15. With eyebrow piercings, do you prefer the ring or the curved barbell?: ewwwwwwww<br />16. Have you ever pierced something yourself? Why and what was it?: no<br />17. Would you date someone who was five years older than you?: ........done it already<br />18. I heard of a girl whose boyfriend cheated on her with a 13-year-old (he's 18) and got her pregnant, so she left him. What would you have done if you were in her situation?: I would've left the dude.<br />19. How old was the youngest person you ever found attractive? And how old were you?: He was 11 and I was 13<br />20. Isn't it annoying when you're trying to start conversation with someone and all they say is "yup" or "really now" or something like that?: yes<br />21. If you have AIM, do you have any linked screennames? How many?: Nah<br />22. Which of your favorite bands released a new album last?: Aqua Timez<br />23. Are you waiting for any bands to release new albums? Which ones?: Within Temptation<br />24. What's your favorite store for buying CDs and such at?: megaUpload.com<br />25. What's the point in buying DVDs like "Girls Gone Wild" and other porn if you can get tons more online for free?: LOL That's a good question.<br />26. If you had to have one drug (illegal ones, like marijuana and cocaine and all of them) right now, what would it be?: none<br />27. Would you ever get a sleeve or a half sleeve on your arm (we're talking about tattoos)?: no<br />28. Do you have a wireless mouse and/or keyboard?: no<br />29. Do you think your biological parents love each other?: it's there somewhere<br />30. Do you have calluses on your feet?: nop<br />31. Did you see the commercial for that "foot grater" on TV that basically shaves the calluses off of your feet? Isn't that nasty to think about?: yes ;&lt;<br />31. What's your favorite color combination (ex. pink and purple)?: blue n pink black n pink silve n blue, white n blue beige n blue<br />32. Ever been to watch-movies.net? What do you think of the quality of the movies there?: they're okei<br />33. What's one movie you're dying to see but haven't had the chance to see yet?: none<br />34. Would you rather live alone in a huge mansion or alone in a small studio apartment?: small studio apartment<br />35. If you came across child porn on your computer, what would you do?: DELETE<br />36. What's the last computer game you played?: Phantasy Star Universe<br />37. What's the name of the street you live on?: Tesiny Avenua<br />38. Would you ever dye your entire head blonde?: my hair is naturally blonde<br />39. What's the randomest thing you ever heard of someone collecting?: carrts<br />40. How often do you use "&lt;3" or ":]"?: hardly<br />41. Isn't it annoying how people walk around thinking Hollister logo t-shirts and ripped jeans are preppy, even though those things would NEVER be allowed in a prepatory school because of the dress code?: No? O_o;<br />42. How do you feel about abortion?: If they do it they do it none of my business to tell them what to do witht heir lives.<br />43. What's one thing your grandmother does that you can't stand?: ......I love my grandmother...o o;<br />44. Did you ever notice how it's more tragic if a younger person dies than an older person, even if they both died of the same cause?: Never noticed that.<br />45. When's the last time you snuck around, and where did you go?: Skipping school excessively I've been arround. lol<br />46. How often do you wash your hair?: Depends on how much abuse it's been through.<br />47. Do you think the price for a movie ticket is too high these days?: Never payed attention to that.<br />48. Have you ever been to a drive-in movie theater?: no<br />49. What's your favorite musical?: Musicals make me feel uncomfortable.<br />50. What do you think of Dr. Seuss?: DATS MAH NUKKA<br />***<br />1. Are you scared of flying on an airplane? eh<br />2. If you could choose one superpower, would it be to fly? hmm<br />3. If not, what would it be? hmm<br />4. How many states have you been to? 20 something?<br />5. Do you mostly drive or fly when you go on vacation? drive lately<br />6. Have you taken your first flight yet? yeah<br />7. If yes, when did you? uh<br />8. Were you nervous? i was a baby so probably not<br />9. When you were first walking through the shuttle to go into the airplane did it feel to you like you were walking into another world? i didn't walk..i was a baby<br />10. Do you usually buy stuff in airports, or do you find them to be way too expensive? food if anything<br />11. Do you like airport food? it's ok?<br />12. Doesn't it suck when your flight gets delayed or it takes them a long time to get you on the plane? wellll read a book then <br />13. Don't you agree that when you wait in the plane it's much better than in the airport? eh<br />14. Does it freak you out a little when they say they are having 'weather conditions'? possibly<br />15. What about when the pilot announces how high you are off of the ground? not at all<br />16. Do you think the airline stewardess do an okay job? sure<br />17. Has one ever hit you in the elbow with their cart? hmm<br />18. Are you happy to get those little peanuts they give you? i'd rather have something else<br />19. What's the longest amount of time you've been on a plane? over 8 hours?<br />20. Have many times have you flown in total? OMG lol sooooo many<br />***<br />1) If you were a fruit, which would you be? hmm<br />2) Ms. Popular - you are or you aren't? eh<br />3) Boy bands - love 'em or hate 'em? Why or why not? meh<br />4) Would you rather shoot an innocent puppy, or strangle an innocent baby? omg no <br />5) If you were forced to slice off one of your body parts, what would it be and why? finger?<br />6) Are the ads on LJ starting to make you VERY mad? eh<br />7) Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? possibly<br />8) Do giant red-haired cats scare you? hmm<br />9) If a huge lobster started dancing (literally) with you, what would you do? uh..<br />10) Do you enjoy watching the TV upside-down? no..<br />11) Are you invincible? no<br />12) What is the worst crime you've ever gotten away with? uh<br />13) Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? sure<br />14) How many times do you usually get drunk in one week? none<br />15) Do surveys annoy you? they can<br />16) If you answered yes to #15, then why are you doing this survey? cause<br />17) I'm thirsty - what are going to do about it? nothing<br />18) Do you play the banjo? no<br />19) Do you play Banjo and Kazooie? no<br />20) Do you snort when you laugh? eh<br />21) What is your view on abortion? hmm<br />22) Do you suppose you're racist? hmm<br />23) If you were out in the freezing cold, starving, and your best friend died, would you eat your friend and use his or her clothes to keep you warm? clothes yeah<br />24) Has anyone ever accused you of stereotyping? no?<br />25) If you answered yes to #24, in what way were you accused of stereotyping?<br />26) Girls: if a VERY hot guy walked up and kissed you, what would you do? uh<br />27) Guys: if a VERY hot girl walked up and kissed you, what would you do?<br />***<br />1. Do you own a shirt from big dogs? no<br />2. Have you ever met anyone famous? If so, who? frank dellapenna<br />3. Do you have any wallpaper in your house? If so, what's the pattern? yeah<br />4. Do you have a Tim Horton's? no<br />5. Are you thirsty? sure<br />6. Have you ever seen the movie enchanted? yeah<br />7. If so, isn't chip hilarious? uh<br />8. Is paper planes by M.I.A annoying yet catchy? Or does the annoying factor over power the catchy factor? i don't know that song<br />9. Do you like the Jonas Brothers? If so, which one is your favorite? ugh them again?<br />10. Do you use mozilla firefox or internet explorer? internet explorer if i'm on another computer<br />12. What's your myspace home theme, if you have a myspace? uh..default..?<br />13. Do you still use AOL as your internet connection? Cause that would suck: no<br />14. Do you watch the Disney Channel Games? If so, which color team are you rooting for? no<br />15. What's was your favorite Mary Kate and Ashley movie? hmm<br />16. Where do you wish you were right now? hmm<br />17. Did someone give you any money today? no<br />18. When trying to figure out how to spell a word, do you just stick what you think it is into google? eh<br />19. Do you wear any jewelry you got from your mom or grandma? yeah<br />20. How old is she great grandma? If she passed away, how old was she when she did? she was 100 something<br />21. Have you ever used a blender and forgot to put the top on, so the stuff went everywhere? no<br />22. Did you want Gordo and Lizzie to end up together? who?<br />23. Can you taste the difference between bottled water and tap water? hmm<br />24. Is there someone you have had a crush on your whole life? no<br />25. Who's your favorite celeb of the opposite sex? Or the same sex if that's what you're about? hmm<br />26. Do you like your last name? hmm<br />27. Do you make wishes when blowing the candles out on your cake? Or do you forget in all the excitement? sure<br />28. What color is your bathing suit? hmm<br />29. Do you use the words bathing suit or swim suit? bathing suit<br />30. Do you know what the .com stands for? no?<br />***<br />1. Do you ever watch old TV shows you used to love on YouTube? no<br />2. Do you get upset when you see dead animals on the road? eh<br />3. Who was the last person to leave you a comment on MySpace? sara?<br />4. Are you open about your sex life? i don't have a sex life<br />5. What is your opinion on plastic surgery? are they deformed or not?<br />6. What is your current state of mind? ok?<br />7. Do you still live in the city you were born in? no<br />8. Do you hate a part of your body enough to modify or change it with surgery? eh<br />9. What was the last shampoo you used? dove<br />10. Are you vain about the way your hair looks? eh<br />11. Do you have freckles or moles? yeah<br />12. What were the last earrings you wore? fake one<br />13. Does it annoy you when people swear a lot in your presence? sure<br />14. Have you ever bought clothes online and they didn’t fit, and you were unable to return them? no?<br />15. What is on the top of your ‘to buy’ list right now? cds, etc<br />16. Which do you feel more, the hot or the cold? both?<br />17. What was the last picture you drew of? carcassonne<br />18. How old were you in 2001? 12?<br />19. What was the last thing you had an argument about and who was it with? hmm<br />20. Do you go out less when it's blisteringly hot? eh<br />21. Do you spend a lot of time with your dad? not lately<br />22. Do you ever make fun of strangers for the way they look? hmm<br />23. What would your ideal house look like? hmm<br />24. What has been the worst thing to happen to you this week? so far..i turned around in the chair, tipped over the table, and the computer and keyboard fell off..they still work but the spacebar is messed up<br />25. If you’re not, do you want to be in love? hmm<br />26. Do you like Indian food? eh<br />27. Do you wear chokers? no<br />28. Do you tend to like pictures of yourself, or not? hmm<br />29. What have you inherited from your dad’s side of the family? personality<br />30. What about your mom's? looks<br />31. Name three things that are in your refrigerator right now? food, drinks..<br />32. What would you never wear in public? skanky stuff<br />33. Do you think you work hard for what you want? hmm<br />34. Describe what your ideal boyfriend would be like: nice, etc<br />35. What do you think of skinny people who think they're fat? ugh<br />36. Could you tolerate a snorer sharing the same room as you? NO<br />37. Do you think you could have survived in three hundred years ago? hmm<br />38. What is your favourite era in history? medieval?<br />39. Who was the last person you cuddled? hmm<br />40. Name something you’ve done that your parents don’t know about: hmm<br />41. When was the last time you went to the dentist? umm<br />42. What are some things about you that might annoy people? stuff<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:1869 2008-07-29T06:02:05Z 2008-07-29T06:02:05Z <a href="http://www.mediafire.com/?zu04cz04sow">http://www.mediafire.com/?zu04cz04sow</a><br /><br />Yay~ a cover I did. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:1694 2008-07-28T20:34:02Z 2008-07-28T20:34:02Z I need to stop going to bed at 4 in the morning.<br /><br />So yesterday it turned out that the Japanese festival was in fact on SATURDAY not Sunday......Sunday was the rain date. That's my mom's fault~!<br /><br />But instead me n my mom just drove arround. Westport is so full of rich people. It's such a perfect looking place witht heir beautiful ebaches. ; ;<br /><br />Hah.....i was in shock and still am at how pretty all the houses were and how huge they were and all the mansions with miles and miles of property. We nded our adventure with a trip to Captin Coes and ate and then I went to where my bf is and spent the rest of my day with him. Watched Tsukihime with him too. Since he plays Melty Blood with me I dont like it that he doesn't know about the actual anime it's based off of. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:1456 2008-07-27T07:45:38Z 2008-07-27T07:45:38Z Tomorrow I'm going to go to a Japnese festival thing it's short nothing special but I wanted to take my bf along with me but he didn't wanna go honestly. He told me because most of the time he always does what I want so this time he'd rather sit out. Maybe I'm spending too much time with him even though we onyl see each other like twice a weak for like 3-4 hours each days and we hardly ever go out to an actual place to enjoy somethign other than just sitting arround cuddling and watching anime and playign video games.<br /><br />I just thought I'd come up with something more creative than just doing that but BAH I guess he's not up for it. He also said that he'd feel out of place and that I'd be fine on my own since I'd talk to rnaodm people in Japanese anyways. Honestly that's nto true at all, I'm ot gonna come out of nowhere talking to some Japanese dudes I don't know to any extent. <br /><br />Well hoenstly maybe messing up his game systems seems alot more enticing and entertaining than getting out of that house and doign something different for a change....<br /><br />Am I wrong in this? I dunno. I'm so confused. Lol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:1172 2008-07-07T21:12:56Z 2008-07-07T21:12:56Z I went out with my Luis on Saturday~.<br /><br />Going to the carnival was cool even though he no like going on the feris wheel. Lol. But that's okei. He can be afrid of heights all he wants. Not to mention the carnival sucked balls. And then we went to his house and then we went back out to go to a picnic with my mom. That was cool. I was exhausted though. I just wanted to fall asleep. @_@;<br /><br />It was fun though. ;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:1008 2008-07-05T19:47:43Z 2008-07-05T19:47:43Z I get to go out today with LuLu. First tot he carnival for a bit and then to a cookout. ^ ^<br /><br />I'm happy~. Also I'm considering moving out of the PSU US servers and go to the JP servers. It really is conflicting though because in order to do that I need to get a move on getting a friggin' job and a credit card....I hope to God it works out for me though I'm honestly tired of playing a online game on such a unreliable server where the billing system has a problem almost all the time everyday and the problem lasts for months on end.... <br /><br />In order to escape this cruel torture I have no other choice but to move to the Japanese servers. Several others have done the same and it won't be hard for me as I've already had my fill of their servers. It'll just be hard to find people to play with and make friends since the time difference is so large. That will change though after a few years. I'm moving to Japan for a while to better my Japanese anyways....<br /><br />I don't plan on living there for my whole life though.<br /><br />Kim-Sensei once told me that it'd be a good idea to stay over there a few years. I hope I find a way to get back in contact with her and I hope it stays that way too once I get a way to keep in contact with her. I need her without her I can't survive~! I miss her. ; ;<br /><br />Sensei~! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novenia:639 2008-07-05T04:32:27Z 2008-07-05T04:32:27Z Natsumi Kiyoura - Tabi no Tochuu I'm very upset today~. I wanted to go out with my boyfriend, LuLu, to a carnival since it's July 4th. But couldn't cos of the bad bad weather that happened today.<br /><br />But it's okei tomorrow we can go too.<br /><br />I hope at least....<br /><br />Btw I made this journal so that I can make more friends. I have another oen btu it's private only for me n my bf.<br /><br />Sometimes hearing from other people about problems and life is alot more better than no one at all.