Valeria

～～～「夏の迷路」～～～
~~~"Spring's Maze"~~~

(I sang this song in Japanese so I translated them into english so I can sing an english version I've translated them though so that it fits with the song.)

ひとり　駅のホーム　あなたの姿探す
hitori eki no ho-mu anata no sugata sagasu
All alone on this train platform, trying hard to find your figure
まるで迷路に迷い込んだ　夏の日
marude meiro ni maiyoikonda natsuu no hi
As though, I've lost my way inside a maze on that spring day

あの日　置き去りにした言葉　伝えたくて
ano hi okizari ni shita kotoba tsutaetakute
That day, leaving behind all those words you tried to convey
今も追いかけているよ　古ぼけた写真の中の笑顔
ima mo oikakete iru yo furuboketa shyashin no naka no egao
Even now, I'm still chasing that smile in these old photos

陽射しが掠う夏の面影と電車の音
ahh hizashi ga sarau natsu no omokage to densha no oto
Ahh~ Reminissing the sound of the train and sun's rays of spring
終わりのない呪文みたい
owarinonai jyumon mitai
It's still not over it's like a spell

ねぇ笑ってよ　あの頃みたいに夢を語り合って
nee waratte yo ano koro mitai ni yume wo katari atte
Hey, just smile like those days, it was just a like a dream when we talked
壊れそうだよ　崩れそうだよ　愛してるよ　今でも
kowaresou da yo kuzuresou da you aishiteru yo ima demo
It looks so broken, it seems to crumble, I love you you know, even now

ふたり　路地のカフェ　口にできなかった想い
futari roji no kafe kuchi ni dekinakatta omoi
Just remember the two of us in a cafe where you couldn't speak your feelings
傷跡の数だけ　少しは前に進めたかな
kizuato no kazu dake sukoshi wa mae ni susumeta ka na
Only the amount of scars, seems to keep progressing doesn't it?

ほら　陽炎がまた惑わす季節訪れ
hora kagerou ga mata madowasu kisetsu otozure
Now look, the shimmer of hot air comes again mysteriously this season
同じ場所に来てしまう
onaji bashou ni kiteshimau
We seem to keep going to the same place
それはただの幻　つかの間の夢と
sore wa tada no maboroshi tsuka no ma no yume to
That is but a miracle, like a dream for that brief momment

　知りつつも　私は　前に進むことを選んだ
shiritsutsu mo watashi wa mae ni tsutsumu koto wo eranda
Even knowing that I was the one who chose to keep moving forward
　それが　失うことになるとしても
sore ga ushinau koto ni naru toshite mo
That, has also led to losing something in the end

Ahh~

ガラス越し　流れる景色は　全てを過去に洗い流す
garasu goshi nagareru keshiki wa subete wo kako ni arai nagasu
Behind the glass, the scenery washes away everything and it becomes the past
抜け出せない出口探し
nuke dasenai deguchi sagashi
I can't escape it, trying to find an exit

ねぇ歌ってよ　あの頃みたいに肩を抱き寄せて
ne utatte yo ano koro mitai ni kata wo dakiyosete
Hey, sing just like those days and embrace my shoulders lovingly
思い出せなくなる　呟きさえ
omoi dasenakanaru tsubuyaki sae
I can't reemmber the memmories they're like a murmur

だけどもう行かなくちゃ　前を向いて　これで終わりにして
dakedo mou yukanakuchya mae wo muite kore de owari ni shite
But stiil, I have to go, and keep looking forward, so with this, it will be the end
「鍵を掛けた恋の行方　胸に秘めて歩き出す」と
kagi wo kaketa koi no yuke mune ni himete aruki dasu to
So I said, "I'm locking away the path to love, in my chest and walking away."
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What's going on between you and the last person you kissed? We're talking otn he phone right now lolz
Would you eat a cockroach for your last ex if they asked you? Nooooooooo
What friend do you tell the most to? Joshua
How's your heart lately? I got heart burn.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Luis
What are you listening to right now? Luis
Have you ever punched a hole in the wall? No
Where were you at 2:00 this morning? Talking to Luis.
Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes? Public bathroom.
Do you wear glasses? yes
What's in your cd player? I don't have one anymore.
Anything annoying you right now? My friend Cambrian being irresponsible.
If you could do something differently, would you go back? Everything happens for a reason.
What will you be doing in a half hour? Talking to Luis.
Who is the last person you talked on the phone with? luis
Are you going anywhere for the next summer? no
Did you have plans today? no
Are you waiting for anyone's call right now? no
Is the last person you kissed mad at you? no
Do you regret something you did yesterday? no
Favorite quote from the song you're listening to? i not listening to music...
What kind of bottoms are you wearing? pajama pants.
How many windows are open on your computer? 2
Is something bothering you right now? i horny
Are you sarcastic? sometimes
Are you shy? sometimes
Are you talkative? sometimes
What are you doing tomorrow? Probably babysit.
Where did your last hug take place? in my room
Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past month? yes
When was the last time you smiled? a few moments ago
Do you secretly like someone? it not a secret
Who was the first person you talked to today? my sister
What are you looking forward to? seeing luis
Do you fall for people easily? no
What's the last thing you put in your mouth? a peanut butter cookie.
Have you ever kissed anyone named Trey? no
Who was the last friend you rode in a car with (not family)? jessica
How late did you stay up last night and why? Till like 4 cos I was on the phoen with Luis.
Do you prefer to call or text? call
When was the last time you cried really, really hard? I unno sometime in the summer
Can you live a day without TV? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Do you regret doing anything this week? no
Who did you last talk to for longer than 10 minutes on the phone? luis
Would you ever become a vegetarian? NOPE
Last person you went to the movies with? luis and jessica
How often do you talk on the phone? at least once a day for a few hours
What is wrong with you right now? i'm horny
What do you wear to bed? NOTHING.
What is the longest you have been in the car for a road trip? 2 hours
Have you ever been around someone who was high? yes
Have you ever played a Wii? yes
How many months are there until your birthday? 4 months
Did you like anyone last summer? luis

Me and Luis have had it UP TO HERE lol

With my mom's bullshit.

Today Luis came over a little earlier than usual, what difference does it make? My mom gets angry because he's there with me alone ......No not really, My sister was home for a while and so was my father and then they both left my sister dropped off my nephew and he was up our ass the whole time until my mom came home.

So she cooks dinner etc and then oh God, she comes into the room when Luis is giving me a little huggle/cuddle. So she flips, "what the fuck are you guys doing?! I DON'T WANT YOU FUCKING TOUCHING MY DAUGHTER WHEN I'M HERE I DON'T WANT YOU EVER TOUCHING HER I DON'T WANT YOU NEAR HER"

.......O o;....

So Luis loses it, he says he'll leave he'll just leave, and they argue back and forth my mom yelling about how he is preventing me from being a woman, that he is here everyday (lies he only comes twice a week) she starts yelling about how I shouldn't be able to date, guys only manipulate and control.

....This is very frustrating, sorry mom but just because your husband is a piece of shit doesn't mean that i will end up like you. So Luis is leaving and she decides to push him out the door pretty hard telling him she never wants to see his fucking face ever again and that he's never allowed over here again. She locks the door...

Let me mention, Luis's hand is broken from punching the floor in his room..... so she probably hurt him on his way out.

After he leaves I get into an arguement with my mom telling her that we try our best to respect her but she's always being such a immature bitch etc etc she retaliates with things like you aren't even in college, you don't have a job etc....

I have been trying very hard lately to apply....but I never hear back and I have tried mroe than once at several places....

She talks about how she wants to move to rhode island and I tell he rno one is stopping you life would be so much better if you left

And honestly, no one would sto her. My father said so himself, he doesn't want to live with the devil he said.

Luis calls me a little later from his friend's house and we have come to the decision that it has gone too far and we must bring another adult into this situation , his oldest sister or his mother. Choose wisely because his family is quite crazy and will do their best to protect me and Luis.

But since my mom won't listen to us, she needs to be talked to by an actual adult because she has gone too far now...way too far. I cannot wait to see where this goes honestly, because Luis's family knows my mom is way too overprotective and I'm fucking 18.

My mom tells me still where I can and can not go and if I go somewhere she doesn't want me to then she will drive arround the whole city lookign for me and when she finds me she will drag me home one way or another.

So everything is fine on luis's end now. He wanted me to do something for him recently, to make a list of his bad qualities and god qualities and see which weighs out the other. I will try my best lol

- Good

- His caring nature for people as long as they are nice to him
- A very good quality to have is to give the right impression, to people he first meets he comes off as a very kind person, that is all good.
- I myself have bad skills when it comes to seeing babies, or children, I don't know how to act towards them and usually arround babies I just kinda.....stare at them but don't really know what to do, even though I've cared for so many. He seems to have a natural instinct when it comes to things like that though.
- He is open minded, just like me. Well maybe he's more open minded than me in the video game department. But I really appreciate it that he doesn't think the music I listen to is weird, or my habbits. ;3
- His feminimity adds to his sensitivity towards others and especially me, he shows that he cares very well.
- It may be immature to rant so much but at least he's open about his problems and shares them instead of bottling it up inside.
- He doesn't care about the way I look and I appreciate that the most because many people do not find me attractive at all to any extent.
- He has his priorities straight and he won't ditch me to go play some cool video game.
- His sense of humor, very similar to my own so it's easy to mak ehim laugh or for him to make me laugh. ;3
- The passion he puts into each kiss you can just tell just how much he really does love me.
- From what I can tell, to him, sex is just not something to do randomly but rather something more romantic.
- Oh yeah he is romantic too.....


- Bad

- I'm his first serious relationship which in turn makes him naive to certain things in the relationship....Like for example, still clinging to me even if I did cheat on him....(But to be selfish I can't complain, I did change my ways after all, for the sake of me and him)
- He let's stress overwhelm him too easily, like I can understand that school is putting alot of pressure on you but please try to be optimistic~.
- His ranting can get a little overwhelming but I handle that quite well and try to comfort him as best as I can, most people find this annoying and use it as a reason to talk behind his back, calling it, "immature".
- Sometimes his nature of caring can overpower his caring for himself....even though he is healthy.
- Sometimes his video game habbits get on my nerves, but I instigate it by showing him some of my own favorite games lol it onyl seems to bother me when he goes against his friends though that....retarded laugh the way they act, just brusting out laughing like retards and cussing "FUCK YOU I LOST FUCK YOU LOLOLOLOLO" ........bleh GROW UP


That's all for now if I find any thing else to add I will. lol But I have to go wash the dishes right now for the sake of the sanity fo the peopel int his house before I get killed or something lol.

And I'm not very happy right now....

Today was a regular day, I had Luis come over and we decided to head otu t the mall, we came back home and went with my mom to the little store she's always hanging out at......And then went home after dropping Luis at his home.

I was enjoying the remainder of my night when I recieve a call....

I was wonderign who it was so late at night because no one really calls that late and it was Luis. Saying that his sister's father......got stabbed and that his house was a bloody mess.

First of all my first reaction is shit.....Why is his mother still fucking arround with this asshole he put their family in danger, then I realised that Luis's life could eb threatened...And now I'm pissed but I want to cry also because I'm worried for him.

Later, the cops come to his house and he hangs up on me.....

He calls back when I was asleep at 5 int he mornign to tell me they've been removed from their house and that the house is under the care of police and detectives as part fo the ivestigation.

And also that apparently the guy who tried to stab his sisters father....is either dead, or really badly injured to the point of death. He shot him. So now this is all over the news.

I hope that Luis's mom realises that to sacrifice her, and her family's safty just to not be alone, is not worth it......

I hope, with all my might, that nothing happens to them.

I have a really really bad feeling....

So LuLu started school ^o^ I'm so happy that he's in school now~. Even though he has to work his butt off now. XD He was over my house the other day and he got his number of his step father's house and cell and he called him and he sounds like a nice guy and he SAID he would come visit LuLu On the 19th but what reason do I have to trust what a step father says? Usually they don't keep their end of the deal.....Or as far as I've seen.

Right now I'm working on getting my birth ceritifcate so that I can get my ID. So that I can go to stores and show them that I'm 18 because I'm so short they won't believe me... I NEED A JOB~!!!

Anyways here are some random survey things...

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So an update on Luis's current problem... He got transferred into Harding, but can't start until he gets record from Cnetral stating that they no longer want him there, and also found out that the English class that eh took and passed in his Junior year came up as Invalid on his transcript... so now he doesn't have enough credits to be a Senior....So he's a junior until further notice. He also needs to get a physical done or else ehw on't be able to start either.

I'm proud that he's actually amking an effort to continue.... Really am, I'm just hoping that eh continues to work to get into that school so that he can continue and finish his education~.

Other than that this weekend was pretty fun, spent it all with LuLu. We watched 3x3 Eyes, an anime, and it was really good~. I liked it alot just wish that there was more to it than just that. Haha. Also started watching True Tears with him.

Recently I've just been focusing on old anime that I want to catch up on because the newer animes these days doesn't really appeal to me. I'm about to drop Koihime Musou....

But regardless it was nice to have LuLu arround.... cuddling him and such ^ ^

Right now my current goal is to get an ID~.

Okei so I'm taking a nap all comfy in my bed wondering, hm I wonder how Luis's day was at school today, I get a phone call, guess who it is? Luis...

...He got kicked out of the High School we used to go to.

My question is why they waited until now to tell him? Why didn't they tell him last year instead of waiting all the way until this year?

Haha, oh well there's not much I can say or do now, it's not like I can go to the principal and be like HEY Y U DO DAT.... It's all on him now and I don't know whether to be disappointed in him for screwing up or thinking it was his fault so why should I care or if I should feel bad and blame the school.

....I'm even thinking of breaking up with him at this point....

I told myself that if he didn't pull it together that I would break up with him, if he calls me again and tells me something like he dropped out or giving up or anything close to it.... We're done....

5 years down the drain....

...I wish he could just be so much better at school.

I don't know what to do... do I help him? Stay by his side and give hims trength? Sympathize with him? What...?

We'll just wait and see I guess.

I haven't updated in a logn time so this will be long, I've been playing on the JP servers for PSU alot lately so there isn't reall ymuch to update about anyways unless you want me to tell you how the Japanese PSU servers are so much better than the US and that I feel more at ease arround Japanese peopel than americans....?

I'm beyond my stress level. It's to the poitn where I start ignoring my problems and jsut focus on other things to keep me busy.

During High School I never did anythign for College, and now I regret it, I wanted to tae a year off and just relax and at the same tiem start applying and workign towards college but now when I look at all these thigns about Final Aid FASFA and SATs ACTs SAT subject tests..... Ugh. I do plan on taking all three though just so I can see how I do but it costs money to take them~!

How aggrivating....

I look arround and there aren't anything I really want to do it's so aggrivating....

I want to major in Japanese but colleges that have that are so expensive like 50k a year for intuition WTF?!?!

And the college closest to me, the community one, if I go there they don't really have Linguistics, Foreign Language type thing they just have certain languages and the rest is business, math, computer, technology. I guess I could get into computers and then transfer over to the other college and change my major to Linguistics, you CAN do that right? I don't even know...

My sister said some bullshit about students that apply and are admtited to Sacre Heart University who live in Fairfield County get admitted for FREE. No intuition.

I would like to go there I guess. They have Linguistics and Foreign Language and this is in affect for 2008-2009 I hope they mean for both school years.

I'd rather go to Sacred Heart than go to Housatonic for 2 years and transfer over to another school.

If all else fails I'll just go to some really crappy college.....A technical college or just Housatonic for 2 years, They can't turn me down I live in their community after all~!

I hate school it's so damn fucking stressful it doesn't help that my high school never gave me my diploma....

so Luis is also starting school this week and it's sad that he didn't go his physical and msotlikely wont get his schedule when he goes but I'm hoping this year that he gets it together and gets serious, he really needs to face reality and the fact that just because he lives a life of poverty does not mean that he must act so hopeless.

I pray that he gets through, to whatever God/Goddes that will listen... Good God/Goddess that is.

I will help him as much as I can with my knowledge of languages and of english literature but I can't help with math science and history maybe, I hope that he will come to me because I will be here with open arms awaiting his arrival with his questions~!

He promised me, after all, that eh would come on the first or second day of school to my house and I hope he does so he can tell me....just how it is now and who he's met, the only thing I'm afraid of is all the females who will be all up on him, not that I don't trust him but he's usually helpless in those situations, even though he almsot punched his won cousin in the face for touching his neck, and some other girl for touching his ears. I also tend to lose my temper if some girl tries to do something to LuLu, that's why they mostly stayed away and girls would get jealous and say EWWWWW THEY ARE SUCH A UGLY COUPLE. Bah they don't know anything about mature relationship.

Also I'm afraid of girls pressuring him telling him to stay away form me or break up with me because we're not the same year and its pointless being with me because I'll be in college.....

I don't lan on letting anything get int he way though I will heal whaetver wounds are opened or made in our relationship.

Today I took a nap after he left my house because I had a really bad head ache and I dreamed of school.... that I was there in the evening and the school was flooded with a foot or so of water and there were students runnign to classrooms and Luis was there , standing, staring, and I ran to him, I was an angel with a long dress and I was floating above the water and I was floating towards him and I took him into my arms andheld him lovingly and he cried into my chest.....Weird dream huh, in another section of my dream I was in the basement of the school running through rooms that were not supposed to be there, huge rooms with diferent things int hem like instruments and honestly being in a baement in huge empty rooms with silence is very frightening to me, whenever I go into BJs which is a huge store that wasn't really designed any specific way it's like they just stuffed a bunch of bulk items into shelves and called it a store but whenever I'm there I don't liek the feeling I get near the giant heater looking thing that makes a really loud RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR noise.....

Lol I'm such a weirdo.

Reminds me o another dream I had where I was in school and in class with some girl and we went to lunch and Luis was int he same class and he told me to watch his stuff while he went up to get his lunch, whiel he was up there I looked through hsi stuff and I found a green notebook.... I ate that one O_o;.......and then found another oen that was purple and I looked through it, there were notes from clases and in the back were peotry written just for me and littel doodles he did. Haha.

Sometimes I have sad dreams like one where this girl was seducing him and he wasnt doing anythign about it, maybe because I don't know what eh would do in those situations? But I end up cussing out the girl or killing her, scary huh?

Well, hopefully I'll be able to spend tiem with him more this week, saw him all this weekend so I'm good to wait until thursday or friday, if it comes down to it I'd just ick him up from hsi house on Friday. I want to ehar about his classes and how manty periods he has this years hopefully not alot. ^ ^; so he can get out early and I can go stalk him lol.

Man I wish I could drive, I'm albino so I'm not allowed to, it's illegal for albinos to drive because of our horrible vision, I have alot of albinos in my family that drive regardless though but that's going to be a problem in the future huh? Commuting will be a big problem I'd prolly have to get up really early with my LuLu and he'd have to take me to work, oh yeah it may seem kind fo drastic to think that much ahead of myself that I'd know we'd be together int he future but I believe it'll be that way....

Afterall it's been 5 years or so and nothing has really broken us, not even time apart there were times when I used to think, "Damn it's over isn't it, what me and him had is over..." and in the end he took me into his arms. Like those times when we couldnt' see each other over the summer.... And when school satrted he would love me just as much as at the end of the year. ^ ^;

Ehhhh my heart goes doki doki when I look at teh photographs taken at my last day of at the school....my heart pounds when I think of him I get anxious and all fluttery nervous......

When I cuddle him I feel at so much ease........man I know I've felt this way for other people but not for this long, it never lasted this long, the feeling always faded away and got boring with them but with him it never ends.....

When I'm with him it's like his energy fuels me, he's like an endless fountain of energy for me, i feed off of it and I'm like hsi angel that keeps him strong and going. In the end no matter what I always make him ahppy and he does the same for me and I like it this way I hope it doesn't go away. Lol

Man thinkign about him just washes all my stress and frustartion away.

I'll have to go back to school this week, scary sounding but it's just to see what the hell they did with my diploma on the day of my graudation, I took care of my obligations but maybe she pulled my diploma anyways, that secretary, I hope she didn't like...... go to a different school or something lol.

I'm going to hate talking with the secretary and my cousnelor @_@; they're goign to ask about college and if my mom is arround she'll be liek SHE HASN'T BOTHERED TO DO ANYTHIGN YET DURR....

My mom nor anyone else I know wants me to wait a year and honestly I'm so tired and stressed that fi I go this year I'd prolly not make much effort, I hope hope hope that I get all this college stuff on the go this year.....

Please wish me good luck~.

Well I decided to accept the differences between me and Luis since not everything about him will be perfect, especially his video gamer side XD.... I sometimes talk like he does and so I guess if you can't beat 'em join 'em. I'm quite done becoming upset when he talks about games like he knows so much about it, I'm ready to take him on now. Lol.

Well today was my last day on USPSU but I didn't use it to my advantage at all this past week, I don't see any point really nto like I have any friends left from my old accounts and I would play if Luis could but I'm not financially stable enough to hold up 2 accounts.

I also decided to cut off all contact with my ex-bf John recently because trying to be friends with someone who only wants to make me feel like crap all the time is not good for my health. Not to mention my mom doesn't like it when I talk to him anyways, I have better friends than him and alot more mature at that.

I play on my friend's JP PSU accounts now because he let me use it until it becomes impossible for him to pay but hoenstly it's hard to play nwo since my controler is dying. Grrrr. Honestly I'm becoming tired with all my controlers dying off so fast I don't understand what I'm doing wrong in caring for them. O o;

But if I get another one I'll be really sure nto to anything to harm it or anything like that. XD

My friend Cambrian might buy me a PS2 controler converter.... That'll be nice but I don't want to depend on his money really since he's only a friend, but then again I'm pretty much ont he poor side...

We'll see though. I'm prolly gonna end up feeling bad. XD But I cant turn it down especially since my PS2 controlers are in so much more better shape than my PC ones for some reason. What I really don't udnerstand is HOW they break, since the wires don't get exposed and I never throw them arround or anything.... Hmph. Angers me. lol

Anyways I'ma go be a nub somewhere else now. Peace nukkas.

I have this problem where I liek to touch things alot. Like if I see something I have to touch it and osmetimes the ways that I do aren't really good for the product or the item. Lol.

So today I was sitting in the living room of my friend's house and his younger brother had trashed the whole living room and of course me being the curious one was so tempted to touch his shiney silver flat PS2..... Uhhhh yeah I broke the ribbon that's attached to the laser. I guess just going to have to see how long it takes his slow ass to realise that it's broken he doesn't even use it @_@;

Would you pissed if yoru house keeper went though all of your shit while you were at work? I would be....

I need to hurry and finish the Slayers series...... I need to catch up so that I can start watching Slayers Revolution

Here's a survey a felt like taking~.

( Chibi Survey )

http://www.mediafire.com/?zu04cz04sow

Yay~ a cover I did.

I need to stop going to bed at 4 in the morning.

So yesterday it turned out that the Japanese festival was in fact on SATURDAY not Sunday......Sunday was the rain date. That's my mom's fault~!

But instead me n my mom just drove arround. Westport is so full of rich people. It's such a perfect looking place witht heir beautiful ebaches. ; ;

Hah.....i was in shock and still am at how pretty all the houses were and how huge they were and all the mansions with miles and miles of property. We nded our adventure with a trip to Captin Coes and ate and then I went to where my bf is and spent the rest of my day with him. Watched Tsukihime with him too. Since he plays Melty Blood with me I dont like it that he doesn't know about the actual anime it's based off of.

Tomorrow I'm going to go to a Japnese festival thing it's short nothing special but I wanted to take my bf along with me but he didn't wanna go honestly. He told me because most of the time he always does what I want so this time he'd rather sit out. Maybe I'm spending too much time with him even though we onyl see each other like twice a weak for like 3-4 hours each days and we hardly ever go out to an actual place to enjoy somethign other than just sitting arround cuddling and watching anime and playign video games.

I just thought I'd come up with something more creative than just doing that but BAH I guess he's not up for it. He also said that he'd feel out of place and that I'd be fine on my own since I'd talk to rnaodm people in Japanese anyways. Honestly that's nto true at all, I'm ot gonna come out of nowhere talking to some Japanese dudes I don't know to any extent.

Well hoenstly maybe messing up his game systems seems alot more enticing and entertaining than getting out of that house and doign something different for a change....

Am I wrong in this? I dunno. I'm so confused. Lol.

I went out with my Luis on Saturday~.

Going to the carnival was cool even though he no like going on the feris wheel. Lol. But that's okei. He can be afrid of heights all he wants. Not to mention the carnival sucked balls. And then we went to his house and then we went back out to go to a picnic with my mom. That was cool. I was exhausted though. I just wanted to fall asleep. @_@;

It was fun though. ;3

I get to go out today with LuLu. First tot he carnival for a bit and then to a cookout. ^ ^

I'm happy~. Also I'm considering moving out of the PSU US servers and go to the JP servers. It really is conflicting though because in order to do that I need to get a move on getting a friggin' job and a credit card....I hope to God it works out for me though I'm honestly tired of playing a online game on such a unreliable server where the billing system has a problem almost all the time everyday and the problem lasts for months on end....

In order to escape this cruel torture I have no other choice but to move to the Japanese servers. Several others have done the same and it won't be hard for me as I've already had my fill of their servers. It'll just be hard to find people to play with and make friends since the time difference is so large. That will change though after a few years. I'm moving to Japan for a while to better my Japanese anyways....

I don't plan on living there for my whole life though.

Kim-Sensei once told me that it'd be a good idea to stay over there a few years. I hope I find a way to get back in contact with her and I hope it stays that way too once I get a way to keep in contact with her. I need her without her I can't survive~! I miss her. ; ;

Sensei~!

I'm very upset today~. I wanted to go out with my boyfriend, LuLu, to a carnival since it's July 4th. But couldn't cos of the bad bad weather that happened today.

But it's okei tomorrow we can go too.

I hope at least....

Btw I made this journal so that I can make more friends. I have another oen btu it's private only for me n my bf.

Sometimes hearing from other people about problems and life is alot more better than no one at all.